Sometimes i really hate myself for being so stupid or rather, too 'smart' for my own fucking good. why the fuck do i have to ruin everything myself? it was going on just a little nice..and now it's going nowhere. i fucking fucking regret saying that out, no one can ever imagine how much i'm regretting now. i wish there's a backspace button in life, and i could erase back to a few days ago. i'd happily give up everything, even my life, to go back to a few days ago. :(

Things haven't been going well for me at all lately. I am so fucking stressed and i can't talk to anyone about it. It's getting so bad i cry in the middle of the night again, or i wake up punching my fists against the wall. I find myself awake at 4am, and i can't sleep anymore.

My life is seriously so fucking screwed, i don't think it should be even labeled as a life anymore. I seriously can't think anymore.