One of the worst bout of fever. My health's been a turmoil of mess, screwing me up over and over again.. And in a blink of eye, 1 week mc is ending soon. I only have monday left.. No more dreaming, no more living in my own world, it's gonna be back to harsh reality again.
I have a decision to make now. To drop or not to drop. And i've been thinking, i realised i've been wasting my time all along.. I don't know what i've been doing for the past 1 year plus. It's really time to fucking wake up from everything, and look carefully.
Been staying home for the past 5 days, the damn medications make me so fucking drowsy. And mood haven't been good for the past few days. Why am i so fucking stupid? Anyway, didn't really step out of the house, except to meet A for few hours on friday night. I don't really know who i exactly am loving now. And it doesn't really matter to me now. Cus life's too short to worry about relationship matters now.
I miss the girls, haven't seen them ever since tuesday. And i'm sorry to those people whom i said no, when they asked me out. Really wasn't in the mood these few days.. Things are gonna get busy once i return to school.. i really have to buck up already! And meetings with the counsellor/teachers. Sighsxz.
Haven't got the mood to online & talk to people recently. I have people texting me asking me why haven't i been online these few days.. lol. I guess everyone's used to seeing me online everyday without fail, especially on msn.
I miss the silly boy, but whatever that happened between him & me is just a game, something we both agreed on. And now A's back, no more games. Aiyoooooooooooo.
KKie bbaiz.
I have a decision to make now. To drop or not to drop. And i've been thinking, i realised i've been wasting my time all along.. I don't know what i've been doing for the past 1 year plus. It's really time to fucking wake up from everything, and look carefully.
Been staying home for the past 5 days, the damn medications make me so fucking drowsy. And mood haven't been good for the past few days. Why am i so fucking stupid? Anyway, didn't really step out of the house, except to meet A for few hours on friday night. I don't really know who i exactly am loving now. And it doesn't really matter to me now. Cus life's too short to worry about relationship matters now.
I miss the girls, haven't seen them ever since tuesday. And i'm sorry to those people whom i said no, when they asked me out. Really wasn't in the mood these few days.. Things are gonna get busy once i return to school.. i really have to buck up already! And meetings with the counsellor/teachers. Sighsxz.
Haven't got the mood to online & talk to people recently. I have people texting me asking me why haven't i been online these few days.. lol. I guess everyone's used to seeing me online everyday without fail, especially on msn.
I miss the silly boy, but whatever that happened between him & me is just a game, something we both agreed on. And now A's back, no more games. Aiyoooooooooooo.
KKie bbaiz.
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