getaway needed badly

things are getting a little out of hand here.
there's too many matters to settle, and there's only one me.
and i can only take so much.

there's so much to say, and yet no words to describe it.
it's really going in circles, and i'm tired of it.

trying to be happy, trying to be a regular school girl.
but it's not working out at all.

i feel...suppressed, devoid of emotions now.
i am just yet another empty shell.

and like i've said many times, i need a goddamn break.
i really need to get away from all these shit, away from this country.
i need a new life..with no strings attached.

i yearn to wake up everyday..
knowing that i'll be happy and carefree.
knowing that there's no need for me to be responsible and act like i'm an adult,
living in a _________ family, having to look after everyone cus i'm the eldest.

it's damn tiring, i feel weighted down everyday.
it's like im walking in cuffs, there's no way i can fly.

can't i just have a fucking break from all these?
even if it's just for a few days.