Mar 24, 2009

fantasy vs reality




I couldn't get to sleep yesterday, and ended up sleeping at 5am! I was like wide awake all the way. And around 12am, my sisters & i were damn hungry, i cooked instant prata for all of us. The 3 of us, sharing the last 4 instant pratas. Pathetic much, lol.

And since i couldn't sleep, i went online, chatted with wolf(s), and played harvest moon! Am so fucking addicted to Harvest moon (PC) lah, i actually played it from 2am till 5am. I'm surprised the laptop didn't explode, cus apparently it was on from 7am all the way till 5am!

I'm thinking and worrying about tmrw. I really must sleep early today, cus i've got to wake up at friggin 7am tmrw again. I've got an important appointment at Jurong East at 10am!!! Must think of ways to sleep early.sleep early.early.early.

Anyway, i was fiddling with my cbox just now, and turns out that i actually have 5 different tagboards using the same email!!! And i checked out the oldest tagboard, year 2005. I read all the conversations, it was friggin funny can, at least to me!

http://www.cbox.ws/box/index.php?boxid=445034&boxtag=7023&sec=archive&i=91

yes that's the link. i can't believe i used to type like that, so ___(fill in the blanks!)___!!!! and i absolutely can't rmb who the 'darling donkey' was. and judging from my words, im supposed to be very close with him, and met up with him on several occasions y'know! and to think now i absolutely have no memory of him. i don't know whether to laugh or cry lol.

anyway im so bored now, my mind is in a blank now. i received the bills again. and i chose not to open it yet. cus i don't wanna face it anymore. it's making me goddamn tired now. can i just run away? i seriously feel like running away, and not coming back!

i chose to turn away, i chose to clam up, just like a shell. don't force me to say anything, tyvm. i've been living in my own world recently, not trying very hard to keep in touch with the outside world, just alone by myself. i apologise if i haven't been replying text messages from you guys. cus i don't have the habit of replying immediately anymore. sorry people.

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The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy.
- Jim Rohn


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