I've been living a rather mundane life recently, no partying, no ton sessions. Only meeting heartbreaker every day, i'm learning to be a "good" girl now. It's the 11th day, and things have been going on fine between us. Though i learnt of some facts which make me pretty pissed off, but still, it's the past already.

Met up with heartbreaker just now for selegie bean curd. And he was actually behaving like a child, cus he's really damn tired. Poor baby haven't been really sleeping for the past one week, and is finally collapsing. I love chilling, and having simple chats with him.

Been skipping school, i know i knowwwwww. And it's been long since the whole group of us went out together, i miss movies (even thou i've watched quite a few this month), shisha (!!) and tcss together!!!!

Seriously. Can't wait for the hols to arrive!! Audit's in a week's time. Can't wait for it to be over with.

Baiz.

Sometimes I really don't know what to do with my life.

Seems happy, but yet unhappy.
Seems unhappy, but yet happy.
Seems easy, but yet complicated.
Seems hard, but yet easy.
Negative, positive, negative positive.

What else?

Too much to say, yet words fail me every single time. I need to get a new fucking space naow.

baiz.

Haven't been going online much recently, especially this week. Some changes in my life, apparently. Good changes, i hope so. :>

Been spending time with heartbreaker, like i've been seeing him practically 7 days this week! I don't know if we'll work out perfectly fine, but for now it's been okay. I don't wanna jinx anything by saying wonderful things now. I learnt my lesson, for this time. Haha.

Cashflow is seriously fucking me upside down. I have no doubts that i won't make it through this paper. I don't know why but I just can't be bothered anymore. But since I already promised heartbreaker, then i'll do it. Trying to study nowwwww.

p/s: Heartbreaker is just my personal nickname for him. If you know who, then good for you. If you don't, then too badddd~ ahahah.

BAIZ~ ^.^

Been going out almost every night, pub/private house parties/clubbing & studying randomly at the airport with different people. Yeah this is the life i'm leading now, and i'm pretty tired and sick of it. Getting wasted now and then, and then stoned by smoking. Nicotine intake have been increasing again.

Anyway, yesterday, 10 nov 2009 has been officially declared the worst day of my life! Seriously everything went wrong yesterday. Had a meeting with the section head, and then fell down the fucking stairs in school. And then met up with my gf, we went to the hotel so damn last minute, and i was in my fucking uniform. And the receptionist don't allow me to go up at first, cus the fucking room is packed. But I still went up in the end, after someone went to talk to the receptionist. And when i reached the room, i saw some stuffs which made me damn pissed off. I'm wearing my uniform and you're like taking it in the room. What if the fucking police came?!

Then quarreled with ys on sms, and then i took a cab down to serangoon to find him & jon. And when i reached serangoon, i fucking realise my wallet's not with me. So i had to call ys and ask him to pay for me. And no one fucking picked up my calls cus they were too fucked and high to answer the damn phone calls. And so, i lost my wallet, together with my cards & ic & cash.

Like as if the day's not fucked enough, he had to show me attitude, and then i was too pissed off seriously i walked off without meeting up with them. Smoked for like an hour plus at serangoon interchange alone, before i went home. And my fucking dad had to blow his top off and bark like a mad dog non stop when i told him i lost my wallet. He fucking only care about the cash needed to replace the fucking ic. And i didn't even said that i want him to pay for me. And he fucking slammed the door and stuffs, making me even more fucked up.

I notice every time when parents are pissed off at you, they tend to bring every single fucking history out. And so it went on for a fucking while, till i cannot take it anymore. I just went back to my room and stoned. And now i fucking have to replace my Ic and atm card. This will be the fucking 3rd time i'm replacing my atm card.

Seriously, there's nothing that went smoothly yesterday. I don't know what kind of goddamn day it is!

Skipped school today, pretty much not in the mood to go to school anyway. Went to the airport to study with Kristy. And then met up with Kristy's friends and Ys. And now im back @ home again, waiting for the volcano to erupt again.

Am i fucked or am i fucked?

BAIZ.

Although this picture can't see my face, i still like this picture alot~

I know i'm getting lazier and lazier to blog pictures and words. It's been a drama mama week. Read cx's blog, and you'll get it. I believe those mother fuckers will burnnnnnn.

And my own life, i don't know what to do. Today is a bad day, been feeling very tired and moody. And i finally got the truth. And i'm accepting it. And i'll live with it.

P/s: A white lie is still a lie. And i don't like being topic of conversation, no matter what it is about.

BAI.

I totally don't have the mood to blog anymore, or maybe not blog here anymore. Below are pictures taken using cx's phone in different occasions.





Anyway, friday kbox and pub. And happy birthday to Ys. Saturday, sentosa. Sunday, sibei sian at home until i go watch the boys play bball. And then some pig accompanied me for dinner @ Rvm. And then i saw a certain fucker. And then my mood gone. And then i received a text msg, someone angry me & nag me. And on msn, talking to you really makes my mood even sian zero. Especially your last sentence.

And if reading the above paragraph makes you wanna fall asleep, then don't bother reading the rest of the entry. Cus im actually so pissed off until i feel like punching somebody, anybody, until the person cease breathing! I am actually cursing and swearing while im typing this now. And it doesn't make it better that im missing someone so badly now, i don't know what the fuck for!

The angsty feeling inside me cannot be dissolved now. You know, when you have a sister like this, and a family like this, you certainly fucking don't need any enemies!

Burn, motherfuckers, burnnnnn!!!!!!!!