Eh, Fuck You Lah!
fuck you and your mother cb nonsense okay. and by saying this, i'm already being very fucking polite to you.
Oct 31, 2009
Oct 28, 2009
School these few days, i lead such a boring life now. Sad life, sighhhhhhh.
My emotions have been rather peaceful recently. I don't know what it is, maybe i'm just pushing whatever negative feelings away, don't wanna think about it, until it surfaces again. It's been 115 hours since our last conversation, and 7 days since i last saw you. I'm sorry, but i just have to do this.
I think im falling sick soon, been feeling very very tired recently. And drenched under the rain thrice in 2 days, confirm bound to fall sick one.
Some words i want to say, i have to say, but i just can't say it out anymore.
Baiz, xo.
My emotions have been rather peaceful recently. I don't know what it is, maybe i'm just pushing whatever negative feelings away, don't wanna think about it, until it surfaces again. It's been 115 hours since our last conversation, and 7 days since i last saw you. I'm sorry, but i just have to do this.
I think im falling sick soon, been feeling very very tired recently. And drenched under the rain thrice in 2 days, confirm bound to fall sick one.
Some words i want to say, i have to say, but i just can't say it out anymore.
Baiz, xo.
Oct 24, 2009
lie beneath the stars, and love like never before
Suddenly have got the urge to blog, but i don't know what to blog about. Haven't been in school for 3 days, i know..incorrigible of me. But sometimes, i really just feel like being alone. But no more of next time, till i graduate. Seriously can't wait to complete the damn course and graduate out of that school. Though i really don't know what i'm gonna do after graduating. Today my dad asked me when's my holidays.. when he already know that i've just finished my holidays recently. Cute right?
Met up with Kristy & Moses just now at bugis. Loitering around. Supposedly Ys too.. but sometimes shit happens. So yada yada, and then Huiyu & her bf came to meet us. And tcss for awhile, before going separate ways again.
Took 12 home, and i reached pasir ris interchange at 1am. Had to walk home, it's been long since i walked home in the middle of the night.. Felt rather scared, especially when i keep looking at the floor, and bloody cockroaches kept popping out of nowhere, scaring the fuck outta me.
Feeling kinda giddy now..i don't know why. Perhaps i smoke too much, and have been skipping meals regularly. Ha ha.
I don't know what kind of relationship i'm actually in now. Sometimes i feel that there's no concern, or maybe it's because you trust me too much, allowing me to go out with other people everyday. Or perhaps, you just don't wanna take us seriously. I really have no idea..
I'm wavering...between you and him. why oh why.
Its 2.30am now. should just go to bed, but no, im gonna watch my gossip girl ep 6 now. it's been downloaded in my computer since few days ago. off to watch now, baiz.
Met up with Kristy & Moses just now at bugis. Loitering around. Supposedly Ys too.. but sometimes shit happens. So yada yada, and then Huiyu & her bf came to meet us. And tcss for awhile, before going separate ways again.
Took 12 home, and i reached pasir ris interchange at 1am. Had to walk home, it's been long since i walked home in the middle of the night.. Felt rather scared, especially when i keep looking at the floor, and bloody cockroaches kept popping out of nowhere, scaring the fuck outta me.
Feeling kinda giddy now..i don't know why. Perhaps i smoke too much, and have been skipping meals regularly. Ha ha.
I don't know what kind of relationship i'm actually in now. Sometimes i feel that there's no concern, or maybe it's because you trust me too much, allowing me to go out with other people everyday. Or perhaps, you just don't wanna take us seriously. I really have no idea..
I'm wavering...between you and him. why oh why.
Its 2.30am now. should just go to bed, but no, im gonna watch my gossip girl ep 6 now. it's been downloaded in my computer since few days ago. off to watch now, baiz.
Oct 23, 2009
這幾天幾乎好像在做夢似的﹐不知道什麼是真實的。 雖然現在愛情獻身了﹐但我還是很害怕。。因為害怕自己陷得太投入﹐將來傷得更大。 但我還是願意去試試﹐因為他就是我這兩個月一直以來都在等待的人。
有時我還真的不知到幹嗎要把自己弄成人不像人﹐鬼不像鬼似的。。有人問我為什麼要這樣傷害自己﹐我想了想﹐然後對他說﹐“可能我有被虐待狂症吧~”
其實我只是跟他開玩笑罷了。。但自己想了想﹐覺得還滿准的。。為何要這樣對待自己呢? 我自己也不知道。曾經有人對我說過﹐對別人好就是對自己殘忍。。幹嗎我每次要對自己那麼殘忍呢?
這幾天應為某些原因﹐都沒回家住在男朋友家了。。在那裡的短短幾天﹐雖然每天都很累﹐但還是滿開心的。。雖然某些東西讓我看穿了﹐也讓我感到十分傷心﹐但能夠看到他﹐我其實已經滿足了。
到底愛情是什麼? 我好像中毒了~
有時我還真的不知到幹嗎要把自己弄成人不像人﹐鬼不像鬼似的。。有人問我為什麼要這樣傷害自己﹐我想了想﹐然後對他說﹐“可能我有被虐待狂症吧~”
其實我只是跟他開玩笑罷了。。但自己想了想﹐覺得還滿准的。。為何要這樣對待自己呢? 我自己也不知道。曾經有人對我說過﹐對別人好就是對自己殘忍。。幹嗎我每次要對自己那麼殘忍呢?
這幾天應為某些原因﹐都沒回家住在男朋友家了。。在那裡的短短幾天﹐雖然每天都很累﹐但還是滿開心的。。雖然某些東西讓我看穿了﹐也讓我感到十分傷心﹐但能夠看到他﹐我其實已經滿足了。
到底愛情是什麼? 我好像中毒了~
Oct 11, 2009
im super tired to the max, red bull(s) also no use.
i don't wanna school to start tomorrow, super sad that school's starting already. :(
i need more holidays. thinking that school's starting tomorrow, my mood jitao sian 1/2 today.
go out also no mood. sianzzzzz.
been running off to JB for the past few days. it's like my second home. ya right.
lazy to type more, just pictures. combination of several days.
i don't wanna school to start tomorrow, super sad that school's starting already. :(
i need more holidays. thinking that school's starting tomorrow, my mood jitao sian 1/2 today.
go out also no mood. sianzzzzz.
been running off to JB for the past few days. it's like my second home. ya right.
lazy to type more, just pictures. combination of several days.
SIAN.
Oct 6, 2009
just so that you know
Using my phone.
Hiatus. Hibernation period.
I'll on my phone occasionally to update Twitter.
Goodbye~
worlds apart, yet i just can't help it.
Hiatus. Hibernation period.
I'll on my phone occasionally to update Twitter.
Goodbye~
worlds apart, yet i just can't help it.
Oct 4, 2009
hello people
I think i've lost the blogging mood, it might be awhile before i might blog daily again. Holidays are ending soon, i don't want it to end, although there's like tons of heartbreaks this holiday. Haven't been eating well recently, it's either one meal per day or none at all. But as usual, cigarettes still. Gastric has been the ultimate bitch recently, i absofuckinglutely hate the feeling/taste after puking. It's a pain in the ass.
4bia2 with the usual gang yesterday. 4bia2 was rather lame, it's the fucking sound effects that makes me cover my face and close my ears. And the last scene was damn hilarious. And then off to the pub again. Major gastric pain. The fucking smart me drank on an empty stomach, didn't eat for the whole day. So the wise me was puking and puking and still puking my guts out. Seriously, at fucking 5am i'm still puking. The gastric juices etc, it was seriously damn pain. Can feel my stomach clenching up and stuff. No more again...till the next time. Haha.
I haven't been going home on a regular basis lately, it's either i reach home in the wee hours, or i don't go home at all. And haven't been sleeping well too. It's like, i just can't be bothered with anything already. Life's been pretty mundane lately.
Been closing up with several people, and then going mia on them. I don't know why, guess i'm just afraid now. Have been given closure on several important matters, made some difficult decisions. It's gonna be a pretty bad time for me, for the next 5 months, at least. But no choice, who asked me to be so gullible and trust people easily? But still, fuck them upside down, seriously.
What would you do if i say i miss you when i don't get to see you?
What would you think if i say i'm afraid i like you?
Cause i really don't know the answer myself.
4bia2 with the usual gang yesterday. 4bia2 was rather lame, it's the fucking sound effects that makes me cover my face and close my ears. And the last scene was damn hilarious. And then off to the pub again. Major gastric pain. The fucking smart me drank on an empty stomach, didn't eat for the whole day. So the wise me was puking and puking and still puking my guts out. Seriously, at fucking 5am i'm still puking. The gastric juices etc, it was seriously damn pain. Can feel my stomach clenching up and stuff. No more again...till the next time. Haha.
I haven't been going home on a regular basis lately, it's either i reach home in the wee hours, or i don't go home at all. And haven't been sleeping well too. It's like, i just can't be bothered with anything already. Life's been pretty mundane lately.
Been closing up with several people, and then going mia on them. I don't know why, guess i'm just afraid now. Have been given closure on several important matters, made some difficult decisions. It's gonna be a pretty bad time for me, for the next 5 months, at least. But no choice, who asked me to be so gullible and trust people easily? But still, fuck them upside down, seriously.
What would you do if i say i miss you when i don't get to see you?
What would you think if i say i'm afraid i like you?
Cause i really don't know the answer myself.
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