Yes I'm back !!!!!

After on a short hiatus on blogspot, i'm finally back to blog here again.. Livejournal is more for my private thoughts on certain stuff.. ^^v

I've not been in school for lessons for 2 weeks..and it feels okay, albeit a little bored? But all good things will come to an end fast. I think i might be going back to school next week..i don't know, cannot confirm much yet. :S

Life's been peaceful ever since my hibernation period..but i wonder, can this go on for the rest of my live? Apparently not.. :<

My complexion is in a terrible state now, having major breakouts now. This is like one of the worst ever. Might be due to the fucking late period, which is stillll not here yet. It's missing for 2 months now. As usual. >:{

And i sense a fever coming very soon..shit.

I'm stoning and blasting songs now...bye.

On a short break.

aint it cool?

totally randomness

As i'm updating now, school will be ending in about a few minute's time. I was so fucking tired that i fell asleep at 2230 yesterday, thinking about aa1/costing/taxation. I was actually thinking of my future routes...and fell asleep. That's a bad thing, isn't it?

Mood's not good these few days, alot of things happened, both good and bad. Trying to see everything through a bird's point of view. Am trying to see everything from a soul-less person's eye. Am trying very hard to succeed...but still failing. Utter disappointment. Fear. Failure. And the elders always say, "It never rains, but it pours."

In a flash moment, i seriously missed the monotonous secondary school life i had. At least it was peaceful. And there's no need for backbite...at least not till this extent. Aye i am not in favour of humbugs. Why why why? Tell me why.

It seems like there's far too many 'nicholas' in my life recently.. Seriously, just one is enough, i'm not a sucker for punishment. totally.

I thought i liked you, i thought i loved you. But guess what? I was wrong all along... I'm sorry.

And to that person who i saved as 'dumb pig' in my phone contact list (you know who you are), thank you for being there for me whenever i needed you.. it's been somewhat 2 years.. and thanks for really treating me as your confidant too.

And i don't know where has my bastard brother gone to, trying to play MIA with me just because he's heartbroken over his relationship with a damn girl huh.. what about our 4 years of relationship huh!?

And janice tan. where are you!? stop partying so much, and meet me.

Yes i'm being totally random today.. but well, it's just me.

/edit 9pm

I don't know how the hell you got my number, when i already changed my number. And i didn't even tell you that i've changed my number. Stop calling me non-stop la fucker.

What's with the attitude seriously.

blues

Stressed to the max.

Don't ask me anything anymore.

:((((((((((

mysterious boy

Banky W. - My Regret

Am currently listening to this song, it makes me sad. And now my feelings are in a mess.

I KO at 11pm yesterday..and i slept till today morning 0830am. And my lesson starts at 09am. Yessss, so it means i skipped school, again. Sigh. Am actually still not used to school life, even after 1 fucking year. :(

Im actually staring at the laptop, stoning & smoking. Thinking about some stuffs. Sigh.

Humans. Friend or Foe?

Changed my blog template to an even more simple one, cus i'm yearning for a simple one, just like how i'm yearning for a simple life. Took away the tagboard, use the comment box instead.

And i know i shouldn't think so much, should just let things go away or go stale.

I am already very frustrated. Don't make me more frustrated than I am.

we're both trying to save something that doesn't belong to us.

Monday blues....

Yes i've got monday blues today. Journey to school makes me sian 1/2, huge sighs when i stepped into the school. Beginning lecture was damn boring, i nearly fell asleep.

Lunch break was okay, missed having to search for empty tables. And fried dumpling noodles. My favourite. Haha. Lessons after that, could barely keep my eyes open. Was literally falling asleep.

& i love smoking breaks.

Tampines 1 with Kristy after school. Window shopped the whole of Tamp1, except Uniqlo. Too many people queueing up. Queue's worse than those branded stores. Saw several stuffs that i really like alot. And finally, got my notebook, lanyard & paperclips. Too many people at tamp1, makes my head spinnnnn.

Slacked at sunplaza park with 2 couples. I was like the brightest light bulb lor. Reached home around 9plus, am super tired.

I pretty like this term's time table. If i may say, its the best of all. Hope this term will go smoothly.

Can't wait for Saturday!!! Am looking forward to it. Hope nothing goes wrong on Sat!

Wanna watch tv now. Gotta wake up at 6am tmrw. Bah.

boredom

Today is Sunday and tmrw is Monday. Monday is April 13. And April 13 means school reopen. Which means I've to wake up damn early, and go to school. Tmrw. Have i mentioned how much i hate school? And just thinking of tmrw makes me feel down down down. :(

I am just so not prepared for school. Many stuffs to do before tmrw. Sigh.

01. find my uniform and iron it.
02. find my pencil case & organise it.
03. pack my bag, and my neccessities.
04. set my alarmsssss.
05. get a new organiser, i wanna a extremely thick notebook.


See this is a boring post, and i know it. Cus i'm so bored. And thinking of school just makes me very sian. And that jonathan chua keep provoking me by saying school is great. grrrr.

I wanna go find my uniform.......soon. Bye.

just a rant

Im actually gonna rant big time, so ignore this post if you don't wanna see me rant.

To YOU.

Excuse me, who the fuck do you think you are? Some big shot in the family, earning big money now? You dared to tell me in my face that 'i'm the one who owed you.' I don't fucking owe you anything, even if i owe anyone anything, it's just my father. AND that's all. Never you.

You're the one who fucking got into trouble before, not me. I don't owe you actually. I actually don't have to cook dinner for you, and endure your displeasure about the dinner. I DON'T. Who the fuck do you think you are!? If it wasn't for my father, I wouldn't even be bothered to cook dinner for you! What have you actually done in the house ever since you're back!?

What you've been doing is actually, grumbling, sleeping, eating, using the fucking computer, and then supposedly go to work. Oh yes now you occasionally iron the clothes. WHY do you do that? Cus you're afraid your father would scold.

And not to mention the fucking 3878274times that you took my stuffs/wore my clothes. And threw it aside. Until when i packed my room, and found the fucking clothes. And confronted you about it. And you still had the decency to deny. If you wear it/took/used it, then fucking admit.

Who the fuck helped you when you were inside? Who the fuck visited you almost all the time when you were inside? Who the fuck took note of what you wanted to eat, and bought it for you and even topped up money to buy what you wanted to eat, when what your father gave wasn't enough? Who the fuck took half day leave from work when you said you had an event inside and required family's attendance? Who the fuck helped you explain your stuff to your father when you don't even know how to put words into your mouth? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU FUCKING ARE?!

What i'm angry about is you fucking said that this is what i owed you all. I can fucking don't give a shit seriously. Why the fuck should i prepare your meals everyday? I'm not your fucking maid seriously. And if i were a maid, i'd have the choice to resign. But unfuckingfortunately, i don't have the choice to resign, as your damn sister.

If i could fuck off, i would fuck off. immediately. right from your sight. That would be the damn 1st thing i'd do.

I might not be a good sister overall, but at least i don't go overboard like you.

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on a lighter note, school's starting very fucking soon. In 1 day's time. And i'm not quite in a good mood, just thinking of school reopen. I cannot describe how i hate wearing the damn uniform, going to that damn school. The only thing that will make my day is my friends...hopefully.

Been getting acute stomach pains recently. I hate how the pain come & go. And the missing period is still not here yet.......

bye.

the new sex.

gaspard ulliel

He's so damn HOT. look at his eyes and his mesmerising smile. woah, total hawtness. i'm gonna melt soon. why can't singapore have this kinda guys huh.....

and yes if he's gonna be the new guy in the twilight sequel, i think he'd beat robert pattinson hands down. he's hawt, to the damn max.

gonna be 25 years old on nov 25,
french film actor, and is the current face for Longchamp too!

i want him now, i want him now, i want him now, i want him now. -chants repeatedly.

and french people are romantic. ahhhhh.

okay, ignore me. i'm just going gaga over cute guys now. it'll be over soon, yeah..very soon. i want him now!!!!!!!!

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story time.

A TRUE STORY - VERY SHOCKING

Very Shocking.....

This is a real story of a young college girl who passed away last month in Pasir Ris.

Her name was Priya. She was hit by a truck. She was working in a call center. She had a boy friend named Shankar. Both of them were true lovers. They always talked on the phone.

You would never find her without handphone.

In fact she also changed her cell connection from M-One to Starhub, so that both of them can be on the same network, and save on the cost. She used to spend half of the day talking with shankar.

Priya's family knew about their relationship. . Shankar was very close to Priya's family as well. (Just imagine their love) .

Before she passed away she always told her friends 'If I pass away please burn me with my handphone' she also said the same thing to her parents.

After her death, people cld'nt carry her body, A lot of them tried to do so,but still can't. Everybody had tried to carry the body, the results were the same.

Eventually, they called a person known to one of their neighbours, who can speak with the soul of dead people and who was a friend of her father.

He took a stick and started speaking to himself slowly..

After a few minutes, he said 'this girl misses something here.' Then her friends told that person about her intentions to burn her with her phone.

He then opened the grave box and place her phone and sim card inside the casket. After that they tried to carry the body. It was then moved easily and they then carried her into the van.

All of us were shocked. Priya's parents did not inform Shankar that Priya had passed away..

After 2 weeks Shankar called Priya's mom.....

Shankar : 'Aunty, I'm coming home today. Cook something nice for me. Don't tell Priya that I'm coming home today, I wanna surprise her.'

Her mother replied..... 'You come home first, I wanna tell you something very important.'

After he came, they told him the truth about Priya. Shankar thinks that they were playing a fool.

He was laughing and said 'don't try to fool me - tell Priya to come out, i have a gift for her. Please stop this nonsense'.

Then they show him the original death certificate to him. They gave him proof to make him believe.

(Shankar started to sweat)

He said... 'Its not true. We spoke yesterday.. She still calls me.

Shankar was shaking.

Suddenly, Shankar's phone rang.. 'see this is from Priya, see this....' he showed the phone to priya's family.

all of them told him to answer. he talked using the loudspeaker mode. All of them heard his conversation.

Loud and clear, no cross lines, no humming.

It is the actual voice of Priya & there is no way others could use her sim card since it is nailed inside the grave box

They were so shocked and asked for the same person's(who can speak with the soul of dead people) help again.

He brought his master to solve this matter. He & his master worked for 5 hours.

Then they discovered one thing which really shocked them....

Starhub has the best coverage 'Where ever you go, our network follows!!!'

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muahahaha. funny shit.

i let you into my head

Today's a damn boring day, it rained the whole damn day. Am currently watching K.O.3anguo. Haha it's a damn crappy show, yet funny. Am so addicted to taiwan idol dramas & hongkong police dramas. Really better than singapore's.



Am getting a new webcam tmrw. Someone's sponsoring. Hehe, secret. :D

Speaking of sleep, can't imagine waking up at 530am next monday. :( Argh school's starting sooner than expected. Hate to go back to that hell. Sighsxz.

Watching Joshua Ang's show now. :D

xoxo

love you....not.

-

updating later. maybe. wanna watch joshua ang and dyt now! hot stuff, woo.

xoxo

I really have itchy fingers, maybe i really have nothing better to do. I was fiddling with my template, and then i deleted it. And i only realised it like....10 seconds later!!!!!!
I was too engrossed with my thoughts at that time. Why am i getting so stupid recently huhhhhhh. It's time for a wordy post, after the mass pic spam.

1st April, aka April fool's day.
Woke up damn early even though i slept for less than 5 hours. And the results arrived. I decided to wake everyone up, hahaha. Anyway my results was like shit. But well, who cares? Ain't going poly anyway. And i pranked nikki. Haha i told her i failed everything, got F for everything. And she believed me LOL. Lucky for me, this year i didn't get fooled by anyone at all. I'm getting smarter woohoo.

It was chalet day too. It was okay in the beginning, with everyone trying to bbq the food etc. Till i got so wasted, i vomited alot of times. It was so embarrassing i think i just lost all my reputation. I can just go bang the wall man.

I went home the next evening. Supposedly to change my clothes. Instead, i took a nap from 5pm and slept all the way till the next morning, with intervals of some people calling me. I was soooo tired i skipped my dinner too.

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dearest baby, thank you for the entertainments.

it's time to get hot naughty busy, playful and reckless. who cares about love anyway huh!? love is nothing.

xoxo

pic spam

Problems arising..and i'm a stupid stupid girl. Kudos to me, seriously.

anyways, pics taken at the chalet. only uploaded part of them. taken using my hp, and some using lynette's lappie.

me & ci yun

wearing hongyuan's cap!

while waiting for kristy & moses to arrive...

waiting for the others to arrive...

hahahahah. delon the man.

super engrossed at the movie '15' if im not wrong

CHUA(s)

lynette & me!

the 'hairstyle' caixia created, lol.

take one.

fuck face. lol

crazy us.

tribute to ciyun's small eyes :X HAHAHA

6-1 = 5 of us.. xf went dating lol.

kristy & moses

ciyun & hongyuan at the arcade.

yes i'm trying to be the goddamn ghost. looks like it right? haha.

actually there's still 2 more videos, but it's super unglam.


update more later. brain's not working currently.

what planet are you living in?

i am so speechless...i don't know what to say. this is just like a game of chinese chess, one wrong move and you'll end up dying. but one fact is, i don't know how to play chinese chess at all. so i'll end up dying either way. this is so shitty you know?

i swear im never gonna talk about you ever again. you're so gonna be my past tense. forever. fuck you!!!!!!!!!!

/edited 11.21pm

so what happened to all those happy days, those days smiling like forever with nothing much to worry about? it's been long.....and i'm getting sick of this shit and routine, bet everyone's been getting tired of it too. i need a break, give me an escape ticket pls. like now.

come, all you people out there. come, shoot me now, shoot me down now.

Ina - Fall

Fall - Ina



I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilage
I had your back at the answer
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled, and fought
Cuz I really thought you loved me
I don't know where to start or where to stop
But I know I am done
I've had enough
So,
Fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you, and you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head on the rounds
I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved youI don't know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I'll be okay
And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you, and you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
So, fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You'll be sorry that I'm not around
I will watch you, and you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I'll be on the top just watching you fall
I'll be on the top just watching you fall..